Debra Basham

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  • What Comes Next?

    Certain times of life and/or experiences of life seem AMPLIFIED.

    In Hard Pivot: Embrace Change. Find Purpose. Show Up Fully. Apolo Ohno says every person will have an experience that changes their life forever.

    This has certainly been the case with John’s surprise open-heart surgery.

    In Hard Pivot, Ohno suggests we make the best of these times by practicing.

      Gratitude: A daily practice that lets us maintain perspective, cultivate empathy, and alleviate stress

      Giving: Selflessly giving our time, attention, and resources to others

      Grit: How to develop mental stamina, resilience, and toughness to persevere through hard times

      Gearing Up: Ways to prepare ourselves to meet challenges with flexibility and grace

      Go: Developing the courage to take risks, learn from success and failure, and come back stronger

    Ohno says clearly, “Though we can’t usually predict when we’ll need to reinvent ourselves, sticking to a daily practice will prepare us when we face our next big challenge.”

    One of the demonstrations of this is our walking practice. We began walking for health back in the 1980’s when we participated in “Dump Your Plump” with friends and members of Stevensville United Methodist Church. For the most part, walking has been a steady companion all of these years.

    While not as obviously directly impacting John’s recovery, our habit of spending less than we earned contributed to our being here in the sun and warm rather than in Michigan during white-out conditions today.

    This morning I baked cookies and John delivered some to our friend, Richie. Richie is supporting his wife as she undergoes chemo. I wrote on the package: A guy should be fortified while he is supporting the wife he loves.

    As I am writing this post, I am listening to Kyle Gray’s live event titled: GIFTS AND GUIDANCE FROM YOUR ANGELS. The gratitude you feel stimulates a light in the middle of your chest until this light washes over and through your physical body. You are encouraged to bask in it. It has the capacity to shine in darkness. Call that light up and out, for the greatest good for all.

    What comes next may not be obvious from every point of view, but perhaps these guardian angels have a broader perspective.

    Kyle is speaking of cutting the cords by speaking your intention, “I am the keeper of my mind and my body. Wherever love is present, fear is a stranger, and love is present in me.”

    He says when you are feeling safe, affirm that by saying, “I am safe. I am free.”

    Other words might be used to speak about this. Without a doubt, spiritual or esoteric practices speak of angels. So do some religions. Angels may be what native peoples call “ancestors.”

    “Before you were in this body, before you were in this lifetime, you were ONE with divine love.”

    Kyle shares opening of many spiritual experiences growing up, including personal close-encounters with angels.

    “You have felt called,” Kyle goes on.

    Perhaps you have felt called to spirituality, religion, art, nature.

    “Your angels will always speak to you in the language most familiar to you,” Kyle assures us.

    “When it comes to your having your direct connection with your angels, it is important to pray first not last,” he continues.

    “Instead of saying, please angels help me with this, pray, thank you angels for helping me.”

    Sue Mierau shared a gorgeous snow photo today on Facebook.

    “Don’t just pray when things go wrong,” we are reminded.

    “When you are in prayer, make it a space of gratitude.”

    There is beauty in every season of our life, whether the weather is sunny or snowy.

    What comes next after summer is autumn.

    What comes next after autumn is winter.

    What comes next after winter is spring.

    It occurs to me that what comes next after gratitude is the balance of Ohno’s list: giving, grit, gearing up, and go.

  • Very Timely

    Sacred Stories

    Aaron’s “Thought for Today” was very timely.

      Practice with as much love and attention as possible, for yourselves and all beings. Your presence here at a retreat is such a gift. Some of you may be thinking, ‘I am leaving my family. I’m taking time away from those who need me.’ They need you much more awake and enlightened than they need you crabby and confused. Use this week well to find the love and wisdom in your heart so that you can bring it fully into your lives.

    The week-long Healing Workshop was starting that morning….

    She wrote to a friend who is involved in the materials: “The retreat starts today and I am VERY curious if the way Aaron’s Daily Quotes get selected are still random or if that has changed. In ways too deep for words, it is important for me to know the truth about this.”

    Her friend responded: “I know! Can you believe it?? What are the odds? The program is certainly random, and it seems unlikely anyone would be able to override it very easily or would think of this quote, to do so. Maybe Spirit pushed this one forth! Only they know; you could ask Barbara/Aaron. She probably noticed it also.”

    (Aaron’s Thought for Today is part of the program of Deep Spring Center for Meditation.)

  • Beautiful Eyes – Take 2

    Sacred Stories

    Yet another medication for her husband….

    The nurse practitioner answered her inquiry by saying, “After all he has gone through, it would be a huge mistake for him to not take this.”

    Almost mid-sentence, the nurse practitioner paused and gave her a compliment, “You have the most beautiful eyes.”

    The cashier who had prayed “May all your news today be good news” had used those exact words. That was the day they discovered her husband would be having open-heart surgery. (Previous post: See Cashier)

    She had been resistant to giving him this particular medication for months…. and she had not been giving it to her husband since he had been discharged from the hospital.

    The next morning the message was clear: All good news!

    That nurse practitioner had (albeit quite out of character) used those exact words as an invitation to come back into into trust.

  • Whether Or Not It Is Clear To You

    Today is Monday, January 24, 2022. I wrote in my journal:

    Dear Holy Spirit,

    Three weeks ago today, on January 3, 2022, John had CABAG (open-heart, quadruple by-pass surgery).

    That feels otherworldly.

    We continue to be gobsmacked by the OBVIOUS perfection of the unfolding of all of this.

    For example, his first morning having had an episode of pain in his chest lying down happened Tuesday, December 28, 2021 — the day Linda and Larry arrived across the street from us here on Pine Island. John felt OK, and went on to shuffleboard. Sciatica pain prevented him from helping unload their van. We went out for shrimp that night, with Linda and Larry and Nancy.

    That night John had a second episode, and Wednesday about noon I took him to convenient care; then on to the ER at Cape Coral Hospital. From there he was transferred by ambulance to HealthPark.

    And the rest, you know, is his story….

    Oh, that Stacey has a job that would allow her to come be with us.

    Oh, how we were protected from exposure to the Covid Omicron variant because Larry’s onset of symptoms occurred just before John was discharged from the hospital. Otherwise, we know we would have all been together.

    Oh, that the home health nurse assigned to us had car trouble and could not get here on Saturday, which resulted in our having met our Magical Maggie!

    Within the days (daze), there are so many more points of proof, but you get the gist of it.

    This week will be very busy:
    Tuesday, January 25, 2022 — post surgical visit with Dr. Cervantes
    Wednesday, January 26, 2022 — last home health visit with Maggie
    Thursday, January 27, 2022 — cardiac rehab orientation
    Friday, January 28, 2022 — post in-patient visit

    Whew!

    Daoism, sometimes spelled Taoism, comes from Ancient China. The concept of Wu Wei (going with the flow) teaches us that rather than fighting against the conditions in our lives, we can allow things to take their natural course.

    I love the musical version of Desiderata. Desiderata is a 1971 album by Les Crane with music by Broadway composer Fred Werner and concept and various lyrics by David C. Wilson. It is a spoken word album with sung refrains and instrumental accompaniment. This section speaks to Wu Wei:

      And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should. Therefore be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be. And whatever your labors and aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life, keep peace in your soul.

    Through it all, we are so very grateful this happened when and where it did. Time and place were, and are, divinely guided.

    Perhaps, maybe likely; likely, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should —— it always is. Amen.

  • Angels Around

    Sacred Stories

    Her granddaughter had recently told her when you see three or more of the same number, or four or more sequential ones, angels are nearby. For example, if you glance at a digital clock and see the time is 11:11 or notice an address of 4567 Whatever Street. That’s what her granddaughter was talking about.

    She shared that with a friend, saying, “I am surmising that angels tend to be around us more than we’re ever aware of, but this numbers tip made me feel good.”

    The very next morning, the friend snapped a shot of the Echo Show with 11:11 on the screen, and the friend sent it to her by text.

    She read the text and saw the photo her friend sent, while she was baking and listening to a piece of inspirational music the friend had introduced her to the previous day.

    She glanced at the clock on the stove at exactly 1:11….

      For He will give His angels charge concerning you, to guard you in all your ways. ~ Psalm 91:11

    Of course, it would be Chapter 91, verse 11.

  • Turn Down That Alarm

    I was tagged in a Facebook post. Words I had shared had been carried around and then laminated, and framed.


    The words were:
    KNOW WHAT YOU FEAR.
    AND WHAT YOU DESIRE.
    SURRENDER THAT TO THE HIGHEST GOOD.
    LET GO OF OUTCOME.

    I soooooo needed to hear those words myself right now.

    Amanda Gorman, a 22-year-old poet, read an original work “The Hill We Climb” at President Joe Biden’s inauguration on Jan. 20, 2021.

    From her reflection about how she almost declined to be the inaugural poet:

      But though our fears may be the same, we are not. If nothing else, this must be known: Even as we’ve grieved, we’ve grown; even fatigued we’ve found that this hill we climb is one we must mount together. We are battered, but bolder; worn, but wiser. I’m not telling you to not be tired or afraid. If anything, the very fact that we’re weary means we are, by definition, changed; we are brave enough to listen to, and learn from, our fear. This time will be different because this time we’ll be different. We already are.

      And yes, I still am terrified every day. Yet fear can be love trying its best in the dark. So do not fear your fear. Own it. Free it.

    The following exchange took place between Barbara Brodsky and myself, in the chain of email messages about Amanda Gorman’s comments about fear.

    Barbara wrote about her own process of caring for her husband the past 4 years following his stroke. “The almost daily crisis of one sort or another…. higher BP, tension held long-term in my body…. the side effects of that tension (mind less clear, less able to sleep, living always on crisis mode, almost like PTSD….”

    I wrote to Barbara:

      Oh, Barbara, your words express my experience! And this is with things going well! Each moment (for both John and me) is PRODUCING compassion. I have greater compassion for your process with Hal through this.

      I had awareness yesterday doing yoga of how much I had not given credit to my yoga instructor. Her husband passed just before Covid and she was in lockdown during the throes of her grief. She had cared for him for 13 years….

      I am not alone in this…. I think of Ellen Hummel navigating all she is.

      I have too much awareness to feel sorry for myself or take this personally, but it is HARD.

      I feel the tears coming now. Just saying that is kindness.

      Nothing operates in a vacuum. “This” stress is not isolated from the tension of navigating political differences over the past 15 years.

      It is not isolated from the stress of having Covid when John’s brother suffered the abdominal aortic aneurysm, and passed. Not isolated from packing my family home at age 10.

      But — and this is a huge BUT, I see gifts in all of it.

    Someone said we can act ourselves into right thinking easier than we can think ourselves into right acting.

    Barely an hour goes by that something has not triggered that high alarm. I am getting ready right now to go get my Covid booster. John and I were scheduled to get them the day he ended up in the hospital.

    KNOW WHAT YOU FEAR.

    I know what I fear. I fear having a reaction because I had Delta Variant. I fear getting sick and not being able to take care of John.

    AND WHAT YOU DESIRE.

    I know what I desire. I desire having the best chance to not get seriously ill from Covid. I desire feeling well enough to be a helpmate for John. I desire feeling safe in my body.

    Nothing operates in isolation from everything.

    SURRENDER THAT TO THE HIGHEST GOOD.

    Feeling safe in my body now releases all the times in the past when I did not and teaches others to do the same.

    LET GO OF OUTCOME.

    If you are interested in the “FEEL SAFE IN YOUR BODY” tapping wisdom with Nick Ortner, let me know.

    As that alarm is turned down, it is replaced with love and with peace. Notice how that expands.

    I’ve learned so much from all of this….

    As hope expands, as love expands, as gratitude expands, notice how it turns down that alarm.

    Peace is only a word until it lives in your body.

    Turn down that alarm….

  • Kaleidoscope

    Sacred Stories

    She works as a home-health nurse. Visiting with her patient, he was telling her how he and his wife had purchased a kaleidoscope at the local art fair. He would come home from a stressful day at work and turn on relaxation music, kick back in the recliner, and look through the lens of that kaleidoscope. It was sooooooo relaxing.

    He described to her the colored sparkle tubes that would be viewed in myriad patterns of light and color.

    She had never seen or even heard of a kaleidoscope, but her very next patient had one!

    “When you look into a kaleidoscope, you see something beautiful. … It represents the initiative we all must take to sustain beauty in our lives and land in the right place, as life continues to change and we are continuously challenged.”

    That sums up her current life to a “K” for kaleidoscope.

    “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” ~ Jeremiah 29:11

  • Lily

    Sacred Stories

    Lily passed from injuries sustained in the auto accident that had taken her father a few days earlier, in June of 2021.

    That summer, a single coral-colored lily “volunteered” in the yard of her family home.

    Lily flower meanings include beauty, purity, fertility, transformation, rebirth, and devotion.

  • Cervantes

    Sacred Stories

    She was up early again. Grateful she leaned toward being a short sleeper, about 7 hours is perfect for her.

    The Osho Zen Tarot card she drew asking about her husband’s coming home from the hospital was: X Change. It has often been said that the only unchanging thing in the world is change itself. Life is continually changing, evolving, dying and being reborn.

    She opened an email and read read a daily message sent to her by a friend the previous day:

    Time ripens all things. No man’s born wise.

    ~Miguel de Cervantes

    We come to understand time in a different way. Each day we discover that there is an order to life that is only revealed day-to-day. The moments when life forces us to reconsider our schedule are no longer met with anger and frustration. We begin to trust our Higher Power to actually dictate what will happen in our lives. We find ourselves staying close to people who have developed some measure of humility for they seem to have a better sense of timing.

    What really caught her eye was author’s name: Cervantes.

    Cervantes is the name of the thoracic surgeon who performed her husband’s life-saving open-heart surgery….

  • I Surrender

    Entry from my journal: Tuesday, January 18, 2022 @ 3:37 am:

    Dear Holy Spirit,

    I am awake and in the TV room listening to Karen Drucker’s “I Surrender.”

      I will surrender to my greatest highest good.

      I will release every fear that’s in my way…

      and I am grateful every moment of every day.

    I spoke with my doctor late last evening. I had called because my blood pressure had spiked the past few days. At home in my pantry is a prescription bottle of an anti-anxiety medication she prescribed for me in 2017 when this had happened. I took one once, and I have carried one with me in my purse every day since. I took 1/2 on Sunday, and 1/2 on Monday, but the pressure was still elevated when Linda B/G checked it last evening.

    I love that my doctor knows my blood pressure goes up because of anxiety, rather than thinking it is organic. When she prescribed the anti-anxiety medication in 2017, she said, “Anxiety driven blood pressure doesn’t respond well to the classes of medications normally used to lower blood pressure.” And that list is long: Diuretics; Beta-blockers; ACE inhibitors; and Vasodilators, just to name a few.

    Of course, John’s recent experience of having had severe “silent” coronary artery disease (CAD) has triggered my childhood pattern of being terrified of all things medical. Now that we are home and things are moving along smoothly, this current tremendous anxiety is a result of my having just gone through everything with him. Waking up early Saturday morning to not-one-but-two tornado warnings blasting on our phones probably added insult to injury…

    My doctor said she is not worried about me. She has years of good blood pressure readings taken in her office by her nurse. She assured me they have done research about the spouse of a heart patient going through this sort of thing.

    I took 1/2 of one 2mg Valium (with permission) and I went to bed optimistic about getting a good night’s sleep. I went to sleep, but I woke up in massive ANXIETY. While there were no conscious thoughts of scary things, I could feel my body in high alert, totally overrun with adrenaline.

    I grabbed my phone, popped in my earbuds, and began tapping along with some Emotional Freedom Technique (EFT) audios. After a couple of shorts — including Tapping Universal Reversals — without much measurable benefit. Then I tapped through FEELING SAFE IN YOUR BODY with Nick Ortner. During the 6 minute 50 second closing I began to feel a shift. I repeated that part. I repeated it again. And again.

    Conditions came to mind: womb trauma when my mom had syphilis and was a terrified inpatient; being traumatized by hospitalization in isolation after the diagnosis of polio at age five; the out-of-body experience at age 12 when I was in the auto accident; the terror I felt during the trip to Europe in 2011. An avalanche of more minor situations that reveal the deeper structure of anxiety also came forth in my mind. When one is driven by amygdala hijacking, even choosing the ‘right’ color of paint can feel like a life-or-death situation.

    I felt my body releasing the pattern and welcoming bliss back.

    My niece, who has recently shared her life-long struggle with anxiety and depression, came to my mind over and over. I had said to John a few day ago I was feeling like I need to reach out to her.

    My nephew, who has used drugs to combat severe anxiety, resulting in his having multiple incarcerations, came to mind.

    And so many others….

    I began listening to the Surrogate Tapping audio, and I said out loud to myself, “I dedicate the merit of this to all who suffer from anxiety…” Jesica Ortner’s words encircled my body and soothed my mind:

    …. This is a blessing in disguise and I am so grateful…. I let go of my need to control this situation….

    I can feel some hints of integration as I listen.

    ….As I heal in the presence of darkness, we are all uplifted….

    I wonder if this pattern of fear and anxiety might actually be a part of our collective divine mission.

    ….I no longer live the lie; the lie that I don’t have what it takes; the lie that others don’t have what it takes….

    I can still hear the refrain of Karen Drucker singing I surrender to my greatest highest good in the background of my mind’s ear. I can feel myself breathing! I look and my heart rate on my Fitbit is showing 67 beats per minute!

    My grandson, Brad, comes to mind. He has spoken of his own awareness of this pattern of anxiety-driven achievement.

    ….This person has what it takes to have what they want….I have faith that this person I love will do what’s right for them. The outcome is greater than I could have ever imagined so I let go of my need to predict. I let go of my need to control. Everything is in divine order. I am grateful for this situation for it helps me learn and grow. I am grateful for this situation for it helps me learn and grow. I’m grateful for this blessing in disguise. I’m grateful for this blessing in disguise.

    When the surrogate tapping audio is finished, I open my email and read two “Thought-for-today” messages that speak directly to my current experience.

    Look around, look around at how lucky we are to be alive right now. ~ Lin-Manuel Miranda (from Gratefulness.org)

    Get to know fear. What is fear? It’s very interesting. Fear is always about what might happen, not much about what’s happening right now. When you’re present in the moment there may be discomfort, even real pain or sadness, but not a lot of fear. Fear is about your projections. ~ Aaron (from Deep Spring Center for Meditation)

    And when I turn on the computer to write this Yellow Brick Road post, this is the random screen saver image I am looking at. And I surrender to my greatest highest good….